Senin yerine Emre Aydın...

on 31 Temmuz 2010
Telefonumun hafıza kartındaki şarkıları gözden geçirip çok dinlemediklerimi silerken, Emre Aydın senin söylemiş olman gereken şeyleri söyledi bana.
"Sana boşuna umut vermek istemem
Çağıran bir şeyler var hep
Beni uzak şehirlerde
Bana ait bir şeyler var
O sert gülüşlerde
Sen yine olduğun gibi kal
benim için sakın değişme
Giderim bugun ha yarın hareket vakti gelince
Sen yine olduğun gibi kal
misafirim bu şehirde
Bir el sallarsın yeter hareket vakti gelince"

Rol icabı (yani sevgili olarak) bunları söylemeliydin en azından bana. Ama hangisi rol, hangisi yalan, hangisi gerçek seçemez hale geldikten sonra, ne dersen de anlamsız zaten benim için.

Emre Aydın'ın sözleri de kabulümdür. Hadi yolun açık olsun 3 Ekim'de. ( O zaman yazmıycam biliyorum; o yüzden şimdiden söyliyim dedim hazır konu açılmışken.)

111th.

on 30 Temmuz 2010
But I have no doubt; one day the sun will come out.

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on 28 Temmuz 2010


Darkness, darkness,
Long and lonesome,
Ease the day that brings me pain.
I have felt the edge of sadness,
I have known the depth of fear.
Darkness, darkness, be my blanket,
Cover me with the endless night,
Take away, take away the pain of knowing,
Fill the emptiness of right now.

Ekşi Ekşi

on 24 Temmuz 2010
Belanı aramak ( yani looking for trouble!)  :

  1. fevri davranislar sergileyerek, cevreyi; sozlu, yazili, fiziksel, vs.gibi metotlarla rahatsiz etme eylemi.
  2. dunyanin en kolay islerinden biri
  3. bünyenin "bir araba sopa yeme" istemini tatmin için girisilen eylem. depresif fizyolojinin bu uktesi "ola ki arada bi iki tanesini de indiririm" düsüncesiyle hareketlenir. buradaki niyet; "titremek ve kendine gelmek" halinin ayari kaçirilmis bir yorumundan ibarettir..
  4. ülkemizde herkes macera ve özgürlüğün tadını yaşamakta olduğundan,burada aranıp bulunan belanın da amerikan teen slasher tadında gayet entellektüel bir ortamda,modern bir biçimde vuku bulacağını zanneder,oysa ki burada olay başladığı gibi türk usulü ekmek bıçağıyla noktalanır..burada bela aramak hayvan aramaya benzemez..
    kimse "hey ahbap belanı mı arıyorsun"demez..ulan bir sor adam arıyor mu aramıyor mu?

Belamı arıyosam, belam sen misin? Peki seni zaten bulmuştum, niye tekrar ariyim ki?
Ve bu bi çelişki midir?

Üçünü istiyorum :)

Bu mudur lan?!

on 15 Temmuz 2010


Bu aralar pek bir "Nil Karaibrahimgil" hissediyorum kendimi, farketmişsinizdir.


Modern zamanlarda aşk buharlaşıp uçmuş mudur?
Bu mudur?

The last drop makes the cup overflow.

on 12 Temmuz 2010
How do you know when how much is too much?
Too much information, too much fun, too much love, too much to ask... 
And when is it all just too much to bear? 

Carpe Diem Baby



Summer is passing on pretty well... 
I'm going to Büyükada on weekends to spend some time with friends and in other days I'm here in my home at Gayrettepe; reading magazines and books, watching Grey's Anatomy, thinking, sleeping and just being lazy...
Officially I'm in my last month of freedom. Later, I'll be under the stress of that senseless and disgusting exam(s). It's a big opportunity for me to shape the rest of my life in the way I want. But I guess, it's so much stress and responsibility for me. I'm scared of failure (Ok, just forget these things right now!)


I'm having great time & I'm happy
:) That's the only thing matters... 

In these days, I want to scream out loud and say "Sieze the day!" ; cause some people don't.


You!
Yes, you! 
Don't think that much about what's going to happen and live for today.
You're just being chicken.


on 09 Temmuz 2010
 But the carousel never stops turning...
You can't get off.

Sunrise, Sunset

It's cloudy outside and I'm the stupid one for staying awake whole night just to see the sunrise.
Sun will never show it's face. It's hiding underneath the dark gray, heavy clouds. And it's going to rain all day.
So you think I'm a little pessimist today? Yes I am.
Cause I'm stupid enough for waiting to see the sun on a cloudy day.
I guess my heart should also do some hiding. Where I can find some dark gray clouds?




Sunrise sunset, sunrise, sunset!
Swiftly fly the years,
One season following another,
Laden with happiness and tears . . .

Meredith spoke for me today

on 07 Temmuz 2010
" We have to sweep today’s possibility under tomorrow’s rug until we can’t anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying. "


Never leave that till tomorrow which you can do today.

Lies are keeping us alive.

on 01 Temmuz 2010
How we're going to survive? I don't even know if this situation leads to an end to be survived.
We'll be destroyed. That's the only fat big truth to be understood.
And your lies are the only way to make it last a bit longer.
Once again we're trapped in a game. There is no exit and there is no chance. Everyone will loose, everything will be lost. Nothing left to save, no one left to survive. We're trapped by the lies that you say. Running in that same old cycle for the 3rd time. But this time, no one will survive.



Better run for cover 
You're a hurricane full of lies 
And the way you're heading 
No one's getting out alive 

So do us all a favor 
Would you find somebody else to blame 
'Cause your words are like bullets and I'm the way your weapons aim
No more excuses 
No more running 
Only God can save you now 
(God can save you now) 
'Cause I know the truth 
Time is running out 

And I'm just one drink away 
And I'm back in Wonderland like it was yesterday 
And you get to hear me say, "Who gets the last" 
"Who gets the last" 
"Who gets the last laugh now" 
 

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